yeah it's terrible. did a tribute set to him at open mic night. powerful voice, great lyrics that were cryptic enough that you didn't know necessarily exactly what he was singing about, but you could identify with them
one of my favorite singer/songwriters of all time. very fucking sad indeed. but the last song he played was a zeppelin cover and the last verse said not to mourn him. so I won't. just celebrate him and his music.
on the pills I used to think the same thing, but I'm not so sure anymore
since I've been taking kratom on my lunch breaks and my feet don't hurt, I've found that my attitude has improved because of less pain, and I'm able to be more positive in general because I know I can work and not be in pain anymore, and people have really responded to my change in attitude
but the thing of it is, before because of my attitude I couldn't see HOW things could get any better. I was miserable and angry and depressed about my job, but now that I've seen how people responded to my being positive and I see that part of the reason I was so miserable at work is that I was so miserable at work..... it's gotten to the point that if I stopped taking the kratom I'm not sure that would change
so maybe all people need is a chance to see how changing their attitude can change everything, so taking an antianxiety or antidepressant for a while could help in that regard -- just showing them how things could be different if they didn't stress or feel negative about everything
so it wouldn't be the pills that fix you, just an idea -- like the pills are a form of inception or something
because I just fucked up majorly with a girl I was kind of with for a while -- because I let my anxiety get in the way
if I'd been able to take anti-anxiety meds and sort through shit with a calmer head I do believe things would have worked much better between us -- to the point that once we were on firmer footing in the relationship and I felt more secure I could probably have stopped taking the meds
in any case, this one was fucking with me pretty hard, and I finally had enough
so to come full circle on this reply:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xgr82Y6Imfkso I'm thinking I'm gonna use my health insurance and get some powerful antianxiety meds... because I need a girlfriend and I don't want my tendency to overthink everything to get in the way of me eventually being a little happier